Spent some time in Clemson Mon and Tues. I applied at WestPoint today, in hopes of getting my forklift job back. I think I also found a place for me and Amanda to live. Stopped in Cola-Town today as well and spent some time with Justin and Leslie. We had a good time watching cooking shows and eating pizza. Justin and I also played some good ol' NASCAR, and had a blast. Sadly I had to leave and drive the rest of the way back to Cottageville. It was really good hanging out with Justin and Leslie, and I miss them a lot. Tomorrow I get to make the drive to Summerville to get a rat for Hampton. I hope Miriam's been feeding Francine and giving her water, but I fear she's been too busy with whatever she does to take care of the poor snake.


Fun Fact! It's 230 miles from Cottageville to Clemson

Did you Know? According to the Rumor Mill, Mary-Kate Olsen was admitted to a clinic for suspected Cocaine abuse. That would certainly explain her weight problem.... But I ain't one to gossip, so you ain't heard that from me!


Were did Mike T. go??!!

TECH SUPPORT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


My life has become a nightmare, and I wish to wake up now.

Happy Birthday, Miriam Joy Triscritti. I Love You.


I met Miriam on a beach near Tallahassee in early July of 2002. My friend and I had driven to Florida during our week-long break from work to visit his grandmother/aunt/uncle. Halfway through the week we were out driving the jet boat in the gulf for most of the day, just having fun and joking around. We pulled it up to the shore next to where she was lying one last time before taking the boat back home. We walked down the beach opposite her and walked back. My friend Matt asked me to ask her if she wanted to ride in the boat before we took it home. I told him, "Naw, I'm not feeling that bold today.". When we got up to her, she had gotten into the water, and he waded up to her and started talking to her while I got in the boat and worked on getting it started. The two of them waded back to the boat and got in. I sat in the front and didn't say much to her. Matt talked her up and we drove around for a while, then showed her Matt's uncle's million dollar home. We took her back to the beach where she had been sunning and dropped her off. She got out and started gathering up her stuff to leave. Matt walked to the beach with her, then came back. I asked him if he asked for her number, and he said no. I told him to run and ask her, and he did. She gave him her number and told us to call her. We called her the next day, and she invited us to her church sponsored 4th of July picnic. We met her in town and went to the picnic where we sat around, not really doing much. We played volleyball with them, but mainly sat around, watching. The group decided to go to one of their house's and swim in their pool, so off to someone's house we went. We got to the house and sat by the pool while everyone else had fun. Matt and I were ready to go, so we said our goodbye and Miriam said to call her. We left thinking,"Damn that sucked.". We called her the next day and she said to come by her work when she got off and we'd do something. We sat for 30 minutes waiting on her before she was ready to go, then Matt let her drive his Golf around town. We went and got some rum and drove around looking for a hotel swimming pool to swim in. We finally found one to sneak in and Matt and Miriam swam around for like 10 minutes. We then drove to Wal-mart (which is mandatory at 3 am), and I pushed her around in a shopping cart. Getting kind of late, we went back to her parents house and drank for a while, giving massages to each other and talking about everything. While I was rubbing her shoulders, she kissed me. At that moment, I was in love. We hung out for a while more, then we left. The next day, she came to where we were staying and hung out with me until she had to go to work. We were leaving the next day, and we said we'd keep in touch. That's how we met. It was the best thing that has ever happened to me. Now she's gone.

What do you do when the person you care the most about, the person you love with everything that makes you you, doesn't care. What do you do when you love that person so much, it hurts. You'ved lived for this person, you've cried, you've bled. What do you do when they've hurt you, torn your heart away, left you to die. They try as hard as they can to make you feel as if you no longer a part of their life. What do you do. To me, the choice is simple. I try again. My past attempts have been failures, but no more.
I made some additions to the site today. Getting the pictures to load to photobucket with dial-up is very, very slow. Look for more to come.
Tomorrow, (Friday, June 25) is Miriam's 20th Birthday. In celebration of her birthday, I make my choice. Happy Birthday.

Made it back to SC today. It was nice seeing Crystal, considering I hadn't seen her in over a year. Talked to Amanda today, and she's planning on going back to Clemson to finish her undergrad degree. She's been in Germany for a long time. The tenative plan is for the 2 of us to live together in Clemson. I'd probably get more done living in Columbia, but at this point I'm too tired to think. My hand hurts still, and I'm hoping that it gets fixed soon. My ulcer is unbearable as well. On a better note, I heard from an old friend that I miss talking to a lot. Amanda Combs is doing well in LA, and I hope she'll continue to write. It's hard to believe she's still the little Ruffin girl that I shared so much with for so long.


"Understanding"

The pain that grips you,
The fear that binds you.
Releases life in me.
In our mutual,
Shame we hide our eyes.
To blind them from the truth.
That finds a way from who we are,
Please don't be afraid.
When the darkness fades away.
The dawn will break the silence,
Screaming in our hearts.
My love for you still grows.
This I do for you,
Before I try to fight the truth my final time.

We're supposed to try and be real.
And I feel alone, and we're not together.
And that is real.

Can't wash it all away,
Can't wish it all away,
Can't cry it all away,
Can't scratch it all away.

Lying beside you.
Listening to you breathe.
The life that flows inside of you,
Burns inside of me.
Hold and speak to me,
Of love without a sound.
Tell me you will live through this,
And I will die for you.
Cast me not away,
Say you'll be with me,
For I know I cannot,
Bear it all alone.


Can't fight it all away,
Can't hope it all away,
Can't scream it all away,
It just won't fade away, No.

Can't wash it all away,
Can't wish it all away,
Can't cry it all away,
Can't scratch it all away,


But the imprint is always there.
Nothing is ever really forgotten.

"Because I'll die if you do."
"Because I'll die if you do."
"Because I'll die if you do."
"Because I'll die if you do."
"Because I'll die if you do."