Haha.
Someone typed the phrase "make like a tree and leave" into MSN search. www.RonWertz.com came up as the # 4 choice, and they followed the link. That's funny stuff to me.

The turtle world was delt a tragic blow today. Little Manny was found dead in the tank around 3pm. Cause of death is unknown. Please send $ instead of flowers to be given to his favorite charity, Hooters of America. Please observe a moment of silence to remember our little solider.

6 months.
Take that, you haters.

I made 3 of these today at work, blindfolded, etc...
rhombicosidodecahedron-20 triangular faces, 12 pentagonal faces and 30 square faces. There are 60 vertices at which four faces meet in the order pentagon-square-triangle-square. It has 120 edges: 60 square/pentagon hybrid modules and 60 triangle/square hybrid modules.

Other people's lives are just more interesting.....

Brad Pitt and Ashton Kutcher Gossip
I don't know what Interview magazine is but I'm assuming it's about monster truck parts. You can probably order some kick ass lift kits and naked lady mud flaps. And Brad Pitt must have thought that too cause he agreed to work for them and interview Ashton Kutcher. Here's a glimpse into what the two most squealed over guys on the planet talked about :

Pitt : Are you wearing underwear?
Kutcher : Am I? Today, yes. Yesterday, you would have caught me on an off day.
Pitt : Dude, you're hot.
Kutcher : Well, there you go.
Pitt : What about the press? They've already said you're stupid. Have they said you're gay yet?
Kutcher : I don't know if I've gotten gay yet.
Pitt : Oh really? You'll get there.

All this and a fold out Bigfoot poster in the April issue of Interview.

Kevin Federline is punchable

I'm pretty sure Kevin Federline fancies himself as some kind of real life Tyler Durden, which is why he dresses like this and likes to imagine he had some rough and tumble past. So just picture the Star Wars Kid pretending to be Darth Maul and know that Kevin does the same thing with "I want you to hit me as hard as you can." All this actually works out great for me since I desperately want to beat his ass. I think I'll go down to the Colony in Malibu or Michael Landon State Park and wait for him. He'll either curl up in a puddle of his urine or actually fight me, either way I win. Little does he know that I lettered in Ultimate Fighting in high school. That and 'Lovemaking'. Drop me a line, ladies!



Around here....
Got a job, car runs, but with no clutch cable. I can drive it, but it's hard driving a car with a clutch without one. Somehow RC bent the clutch fork, so now we have to drop the transmission and replace it. Hurray...Jasmine's still in DC. She needs to bring her filipino booty back to SC. Miss you baby!!!!

Some "News you can Use"
-Sarah Jessica Parker was replaced this week by Joss Stone as the Gap spokesperson, and this is the quote that came out of SJP's camp:

"Joss is not only a teenager, she's also a virtual unknown. Had her replacement been a big star, perhaps Sarah wouldn't have minded so much."

I've never punched a woman, but that's probably because I've never met Sarah Jessica Parker. And that quote is a glimpse into why. God she's awful, with her confusingly high self worth and endlessly annoying sanctimony. I don't know who Joss Stone is and frankly I don't care, I'm positive she's less annoying that Sarah Jessica Parker. The new commercial could be Joss riding a T-Rex that comes to my house and stomps me in the balls and I'd still prefer it to anything with Sarah Jessica Parker. Yeah, keep telling me she's uniquely beautiful ..she's not. She's genuinely ugly. Bear-repellent ugly.
Alright, a quick search later and it turns out that Joss Stone is a 17 year old soul singer who gets compared to Janis Joplin a lot. I'm not sure when that became flattering, but, hey, whatever. You could dig up the real Janis Joplin, put her in some khakis and dance her around in a Gap ad, it'd still be less nauseating that Sarah Jessica telling me how much everyone loves her. (Just kidding, Jasmine. You know I loooove SATC....)

-Mario Vazquez, the guy who suddenly quit "American Idol" a couple of weeks ago, has been "Clayed," or should I say, "Aiwakened?"

He's hired former "Idol" runner-up Clay Aiken's high-powered record-industry lawyer. And he may have jeopardized his "amateur" status by being featured on an album that's already been released.Unbeknownst to anyone, Mario is featured on an album that was originally released last May and had a re-release this week, according to Amazon.com. He sings several pop songs as the only guest vocalist on "Worlds of Change," by an Argentine flamenco and R&B guitarist named Cesar. What a shame...

-Christina Aguilera's been axed from a fashion label after slating celebs who push their own clothing ranges. The singer was due to launch her own line with company Basic Box, but her multi-million contract was terminated after she called celebrity lines "tacky".

Probably for the best, considering Christina Aguilera's strange taste in everything. Her clothing line would've probably been something along the lines of an eye patch and pirate hat. With a talking parrot. And treasure. Argggh! I'm a pirate!

-(Lindsay) Lohan and Johnny Knoxville were out one night with some of his buddies when the group arrived at a (New Orleans) nightclub that wouldn't admit the underage Lohan. So what did Knoxville do? He left Lohan outside and went on clubbing...

It's undeniably cool that a proud white-trash guy like Johnny Knoxville would leave a confused and scared princess like Lindsay Lohan alone on the curb in a town like New Orleans, where the odds were 50-50 that she'd be kidnapped and sold into slavery. Although, if she was, it would end up like some John Hughes movie where she's such a pain in the ass, the kidnappers end up paying a ransom to get rid of her. Hijinks would ensue and guys would get hit in the balls a lot. And in the end, we'd all learn a little about ourselves and a lot about love. Rated PG-13.

"Cardinal's plea: Don't read 'Da Vinci Code"
Theologian calls novel insulting 'sack full of lies'
MSNBC News Services
Updated: 12:33 p.m. ET March 16, 2005

VATICAN CITY - The cardinal leading the Vatican's charge against The Da Vinci Code urged Catholics on Wednesday to shun it like rotten food and branded the bestseller "a sack full of lies" insulting the Christian faith.

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In an interview with Reuters inside the Vatican, Cardinal Cardinal Tarcisio Bertone also said Catholic bookstores should take the thriller off their shelves and accused U.S. author Dan Brown of "deplorable" behavior.

The novel is an international murder mystery centered on attempts to uncover a secret about the life of Christ that a clandestine society has tried to protect for centuries.

"Don't buy this. Don't read this because this is rotten food," said Bertone, the highest ranking Catholic churchman to speak out against the blockbuster.

"A lot of novels do good but this book is rotten food ... it does harm, not good.", Beronte said in the 30-minute interview in the offices of the Vatican's doctrinal department.

The rest of the story can be found here.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/7205300/?GT1=6305

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AOL has some new "Terms of Service" for those who use their AOL Instant Messaging servers, and it's pretty crazy:

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I'm keenly aware that by communicating with friends and colleagues via AIM, it's easy for someone to eavesdrop on our conversation. I know that anyone on the network can see what I'm passing back and forth, and thus try to not to have too many highly sensitive conversations via AIM. Nefarious observers of packets have always concerned me, but I never thought to be concerned that the company providing the service would share that information.

Millions of people use AIM as a tool to share incredibly personal stories and don't assume that their personal conversations will show up in AOL's marketing materials or other places, especially without their consent. AOL has created a basic expectation of privacy, while secretly sticking in their legal documents that there isn't any. That AOL even thinks it's ok for them to collect these millions of intimate personal conversations is bad enough, but that they grant themselves the right to broadly use such material is simply not acceptable.

Another day spent working on the car. I've gotten the motor ready to take out of the old car and drop into the new car. Tomorrow I'm cleaning the engine, fixing the oil leak around the oil pressure sending unit, putting on the new long tube header, and putting everything into the new car. We got all the suspension put together as well today. The goal if the weather stays dry is to have the car running Friday. It's been pretty cold outside, and hasn't made the job any more pleasurable. The engine swap has been a pain because the engine has never been out of the car. I imagine most of your are thinking to yourself, "Isn't that a good thing??!!". However, my friend Dave's red RT has spent more time without an engine that it has with one. He's probably had 4 or 5 motors in the car since he bought it new in '99. The last motor exploded on the dyno when he put 100 shot of nitrous to it. His new motor is going to make over 220 whp, probably run 13's in the 1/4 mile, and be worth over $4K. Everyone has their own vices, I guess. Some just have more expensive ones. I'll just be glad to be able to go to work again...

So I was told I needed to update the site... Not much going on. I got the Neon running again, but it died last night. Had it towed to RC's apt, so we can pull the motor and tranny soon. The goal is to have the new car running by Friday. Tomorrow I'm starting on the car no matter what. Watching the wrassln, not very exciting.. Jasmine's being stingy... Got my new contacts today, as well as a fresh cut. Bowman walked right past me today and didn't recognize me. Well, see ya later!

It's been 5 days since I've seen you, since I've even talked to you. How much more do I have to endure? It's so hard. I don't know how much more I can take. I love you so much. I'm trying to make things better, I really am. Isn't that enough? What do I have to do? I know things can't just change overnight, and you need time. But I'm trying, I really am.

"Understanding"

The pain that grips you,
The fear that binds you.
Releases life in me.
In our mutual,
Shame we hide our eyes.
To blind them from the truth.
That finds a way from who we are,
Please don't be afraid.
When the darkness fades away.
The dawn will break the silence,
Screaming in our hearts.
My love for you still grows.
This I do for you,
Before I try to fight the truth my final time.

We're supposed to try and be real.
And I feel alone, and we're not together.
And that is real.

Can't wash it all away,
Can't wish it all away,
Can't cry it all away,
Can't scratch it all away.

Lying beside you.
Listening to you breathe.
The life that flows inside of you,
Burns inside of me.
Hold and speak to me,
Of love without a sound.
Tell me you will live through this,
And I will die for you.
Cast me not away,
Say you'll be with me,
For I know I cannot,
Bear it all alone.


Can't fight it all away,
Can't hope it all away,
Can't scream it all away,
It just won't fade away, No.

Can't wash it all away,
Can't wish it all away,
Can't cry it all away,
Can't scratch it all away,


But the imprint is always there.
Nothing is ever really forgotten.

"Because I'll die if you do."
"Because I'll die if you do."

"Untitled"

Say that you love me,
say that you care.
And if you need me,
I'll always be there.
Standing by your side,
never to leave.
Your always on my mind,
For your touch I wait.

Closer and closer,
to you I feel.
With all of your love,
my heart has sealed.
Greater with each day,
my love grows for you.
With you in my life,
my dream has come true.

Baby you're my love,
that is the truth.
All of my life,
i've searched for you.
I know you love me,
this I can see.
And Jasmine I love you,
Without you, there is no me.

At least these pictures will make the girls happy

Another day. It started off earlier than expected, 7am. Woke up for no reason, even though I didn't get to sleep until like 3am. Fell back asleep around 8, then woke back up to the alarm at 9:30. Walked some car parts to the post office to be shipped, then met Amanda at the bank to cash some checks. I'm so tired of walking, that I put my rent check in an envelope, put a stamp on it, and put that mutha in the mailbox. The place to pay the rent is a 5 minute drive, and rent's due on the 5th. Planned on going to Bi-Lo today, but riding the Cat bus is a giant pain in the ass. They never show up on time, and drive right past you. I always wish I had a great big rock to throw whenever the 500 pound driver decided to ignore me. So I called 1-800-contacts, and ordered my $90 3 pairs of contacts I won't get for 5 WEEKS. That's right, 5 weeks. And that's with making the lady feel bad and throwing in free 2-3 day Fed-Ex shipping. At least I'll be beautiful again, but not for another month. So then I changed clothes to go outside and start taking the Neon apart. Just didn't feel up to it, so I took pictures of things to sell. Only productive thing done today was making a For Sale post on www.neons.org/forums. Trying to pay for my cams and valvetrain by selling superfluous parts off the crappy neon. I'm going to try and strip it down to just the rolling chassis and sell it that way. The rest of the day was spent worthlessly browsing the "internet". Watched some tv, paced around my apartment. I've seen maybe 3 people in the last 5 days, never for very long, except Jessica yesterday. Being here by myself all the time is driving me out of my mind.

Hoping to start building my racecar Friday. Here's the specifics:
95 Plymouth Highline Coupe Fully redone 117k on the odometer 5spd
New Phantom Grey Mettalic Paint
Black window tint
PS
8k Tach Cluster
S&W 6 point cage welded in painted Hammered Silver
Solid Welded Rear strut bar
Masive weight reduction- all carpet and interior behind front seats, sound material, rear seatbelts, brackets, etc, it has rear trunk carpet, that's it
ACR 4 wheel disc conversion
Prothane Suspension Bushings
22mm Front Sway Bar off a 99 R/T
22mm Rear Mopar sway bar
Good shocks
prothane motor mounts
Mopar high rate springs Front and Rear
It has a DOHC wiring harness in it now
Engine bay is painted Mettalic Black
No rust
AC removed
Also on deck are Crane 16's cams, crane valvetrain, and afx longtube header.
I'm swapping in my RT seats, as well as my motor/tranny. The car is in 1000 pieces right now, so it's going to be a lot of work. Other than the cheap pricetag, I bought this to keep my mind off of other things going on in my life. I really enjoy working on cars, and some happiness will be a breath of fresh air. This will be a real

SCCA/SOLO 2

car. With just some Koni's, some race tires, and a limited slip, it'll have a full suspension and run high 13's in the 1/4 mile. Pretty impressive for a naturally aspirated motor. It should be putting about 180 hp to the ground, weighing about 2300 with me in it. The cage will take some getting used to, seeing as the car will be a daily driver. I'm really looking forward to getting it running and on the road.
Here's a link to a video of the car in action. Yes, I drive my Neon like that (well, maybe better...) during sanctioned events.
If you're viewing this at work, turn the sound down, as the camaraman has a potty mouth. Watch it again at home, because the car sounds mean as hell.

Holy crap that's a Neon

*Thinking positive, Missing you*

Day 2. It's so hard to see her online. I can picture her sitting at her desk, her glasses perched on her nose, feveriously typing away to someone on aim. Or writing a paper, chewing on her pen top. All of this, and she can't say hi to me. It hurts so much. I miss everything about her. The twirling of the curls, her singing to the radio, her smile, kissing her chin becauase my beard irritates her soft skin. I miss watching her try and keep the fish tank clean, poking at the turtles, and hearing her praise the little turtle for swimming around. More than anything, I miss hearing "I love you", and "baby". I miss her so much.
Today, Jessica came by and we talked. We then went to Anderson, and picked up the last 2 checks I had from working. I had just gotten a whole dollar raise. I took us out to lunch, and found out there isn't a Moe's in Anderson at all. Came back to Clemson, sent Jasmine some roses, went by Blockbuster, then came home. Did $45 worth of laundry tonight as well. Having someone to spend some time with was nice. I'm glad we're able to talk again.

"I love you... I love you, I love you...

Baby I love you, you are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation and connection to the sun
With you next to me, there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, I am the seed
With you and God, who's my sunlight, I'm blooming, grown so
beautifully
Baby I'm so proud, proud to be your man
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and misty
world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I know you love me, love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am, baby you were my girl
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I you having my child
I see myself being your husband and I see my whole future in your
eyes
The thought of all my love for you, sometimes makes me wanna cry
I Realize all my blessings, I'm grateful to have you by my side

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

Every time I see your face, my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good, it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love, to hold, to feel, to breathe
To love you
Dangerously in love, yeah

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

Dangerously
Dangerous, dangerously in love with you
Oh, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you.. oh yes.."
DC

I don't (and never have) cared if people leave annoyomous comments on my site. If you want something to hide behind, that's fine. But if you have something to say, then just say it. I'm a big boy. I want to make thing better, I really do. So please, help me.

"ur killing me ron...if u got beef then eat a porkchop...if u see a hill ahead then get over it...make like a tree and leave it be"

I don't understand what this means. Rather than using a bunch of colloquialisms, why not just explain what you're trying to say like a normal human being. That way I can at least understand what it is you're trying to imply. That fact is that I made a mistake, now I have to face the consequences. I don't want our relationship to be over, and if I have to change my outlook on things, then I will. But I'm not giving up, not yet.

Finally sold the bus today. Only after threatening to sue the jackass, though... Lost $173 out of the deal, but plus $1296, so I guess it's better than nothing. Positive outlook, remember Ron? Had something special to do today, but bc slapnuts didn't get the bus paid for in time, it didn't work out. Maybe it'll still be special tomorrow, even though someone beat me to it :( . Rc took me to Seneca to get a replacement title, and we got some lunch. Wish I could say the rest of the day wasn't wasted, but that'd be a lie.
Buying RC's shell from him, for a couple of different reasons. Maybe a later post on that.

I miss you so much Jasmine. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me. I'm so sorry. Please understand that. I wish I could take back all the hateful things I said. Please know I didn't mean them.

"So what do you think
Lets get back together, lets get back together
It's nothing it could hurt, it could only get better
Think of what it used to feel like
You and I didn't turn our nice into forever
See, see it don't take a rocket scientist to know I love you
And it don't take a rocket scientist to know I need you
See if you believe that you and me
Can change the world some day
Then you believe me when I say
I still love you
I still love you
Never to not be so happy and sure of myself
Baby life without you is so dark, so dark, so dark
Now I know it will never be me loving someone else
This precious love your my shining star
I remember when we first fell in love
I couldn't have expected it
I couldn't address what made me melt
But quick to tell you how it felt
That love is so real and it still is
I still love you
I still love you
Just look at the things we plan to do me and you
Life changing the face of those and that we once knew
So when it's the sun the shine the oceans are blue
And that we can laugh and cry and that through."

702

God, I miss her so much.
Please don't give up on me.
Things will get better, I promise.

New Outlook On Life